Sunday, February 21, 2010

In the zone



I have issues. Writing issues. I want everyone to read everything I write....but not while I'm writing it. I get weirded out. I can't keep writing. I lose my train of thought and just want to quit. There's something wrong with me. 

The other day I was writing my blogs and we had company. I was in the other room from our company and in my own little world, writing like crazy. Then they* decided to come see what I was doing. They asked me what I was doing. I replied, writing. Then they leaned over in front of me and started reading what I was writing. I panicked.

I don't know if it's a thing about my personal space. I do have issues with that. I think it's more of a thing with my personal thoughts and getting them here. 

Now I know that once they are here they are no longer personal. They are for everyone to read. That's fine with me. Like I said, I WANT everyone to read them. What I have a problem with is people reading them before I hit 'publish post'. 

Is that normal? Does anyone else feel that way? I mean I totally felt like I was suffocating. It was an all out panic attack. 

BECAUSE MY WORDS WERE BEING READ BEFORE I PUBLISHED THEM.

I don't think that's normal. Please tell me it's normal. Please tell me you feel the same way at least every now and then. I just want to know.



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*I don't want to say who it was because I can't bear to hurt anyones feelings. I don't know if that's normal either.

7 COMMENTS:

maryt/theteach said...

It's perfectly normal. I feel the same way. You have a real friend in New York. Come to New York and I (hubby too) will take you around. Can't write with someone else in the room! :)

william manson said...

It depends on the person dear,I often have my daughter leaning over me and reading what I write but she is my proof reader and will point out errors or say well dad that sounds better etc, it depends who the person is thats leaning over u, if its friends or a stranger then yes, ur personal space is yours xx

Living a Balanced life in texas said...

omgosh it drives me "Crazy" when people read over my shoulder or if Im reading something and they decide they want to have a conversation at that exact moment. <3 moo-ma totally not alone

Unknown said...

I'm odd - my words generally come out as they appear in final form. So I don't care if people read over my shoulder.

I suspect if I were less of a write it and let the words fall where they may type, it would bother me too.

Ruth said...

I think it's normal, although I don't feel that way all the time. But of course you wouldn't want to share what is in process, especially if you feel a little vulnerable about it before its final stage.

Doris Sturm said...

Kathy, I think it's totally normal, at least for me. I smiled the whole time I read your article, because that's exactly how I feel. First of all I like nobody leaning over me while I do anything - must be a personal space issue with me too - and I don't like anyone looking at my painting till it's done or (when I was married) I didn't like my hubby watching me getting dressed, but had no problem peeling off my clothes in front of him - it's just one of those little quirky things that just are what they are, but not bad enough to need fixing.

Have a wonderful day!
Doris :-)

jenn said...

Totally normal. I'm exactly the same way, but I take it to the extreme where I can't write if there are people other than my family in the house because they MIGHT walk in and read what I'm writing. I'm pretty sure I take it into the realm of mental illness.

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